I wore a linen dress to work on Friday. Yep, you heard that right… Me! In a frock!!
I guess in order to understand how huge that is, (not the dress, which to be fair was pretty cavernous, but I mean huge in terms of the fact that I wore it in the first place) I probably need to explain that since I started working there a couple of years ago, nobody’s ever seen me in anything other than stretchy black pinstripe pants teamed with a wide selection of loose-fitting tops. Walking through the door in a dress felt all kinds of weird, but I’ve got to say everyone was full of compliments. Well, once they’d picked their chin up off the floor that is 🙂
So, that’s something else I can add to my growing list of firsts…it ranks right up there with discovering I could cross my legs again, and being able to cut my toenails and breathe at the same time. Only people who’ve been seriously fat will get what I mean with that one…it really is the little things that normal people take for granted which all add to the feeling that slowly but surely I’m stepping off the Hot Mess Express, and reclaiming normal as my very own.
You’ll never guess what the bitch in the bathroom offered up this week…three whole pounds. How about them apples, eh? I lost nothing last week but I was more relaxed about it than I ever used to be, because I know that the input has been pretty solid. My diet is on track and my exercise has gone to a whole other level, so I was confident that sooner or later she’d have to concede some poundage. I did a happy dance right there in the bathroom.
More importantly I can feel it…I feel skinnier, somehow. Even though I didn’t manage to have quite the super-clean eating week I’d promised myself, I did okay you know? Much better than the week before. And now, I have just two pounds to go to hit the 70lbs mark, which is my five stones milestone and folks, I’m going after it this week. Big time…hello seventeen stone something, your ass belongs to me.
I had a bit of a splurge and bought myself some new clothes over the weekend with the money I made from selling my too big for me now wardrobe. Some of them are in the next size down again from where I am right now, because I wanted to choose some things for my holiday before all the summer stuff gets picked over.
I’m excited about the parcel arriving, which is a bit of a turn up for the books…something else I haven’t felt for the longest time. Buying new clothes is an ordeal when you’re the size of a moose because nothing looks nice or feels nice. Ask me if any of my new stuff came from a fat-girl shop..? NO! I mean they’re still fat sizes from a normal shop, but still. It’s a big step forward. Another first.
God of Pain is back from his jollies, and classes start again tonight after a three-day hiatus. I’m ready to go back. And yes, you heard that right, too…I’m ready.
I still keep having to pinch myself to believe that I’m really doing this. Come on!
What is a “stone” in relation to weight loss? How many pounds equal a “stone”?
Hey Diane…there are fourteen pounds in a stone 🙂
I remember when I was at my heaviest, I’d parked my car in a shopping center. When I returned, another car was parked in the next space on the driver’s side. Ditto one on the passenger. Everyone was well centered in their spaces, but I didn’t fit between the cars so I couldn’t get to my car door. It was either try to climb through the hatch back, or lurk–pretending to look in store windows–until one of the cars moved.
I lurked. I remember thinking, I must be the only person ever who got too fat to fit in a parking lot… !!
Oh bless you Margaret I can imagine…it’s odd isn’t it that things like that become the wallpaper against which you live your life when you’re really heavy. I remember that decision tree, where you have to choose between parking near enough to the supermarket doors so you didn’t have to walk far, or further away so there weren’t so many cars and you wouldn’t get boxed in!!
So happy for you… and it’s always better when you can “feel” the skinny. You have re-energized me. After doing great for 2 months this past 2 weeks I have fallen into old patterns. I had every reason in the world – my stomach was giving me fit, it was too hot, work has been crazy… but as I read this post I could see them for what they were – excuses. So tonight I will re-start my commitment and get right back to it. Thank you for your inspiration. 🙂
Oh wow I’m delighted! Get me, a fully paid up member of the diet police!! Good luck getting back in the saddle, it’s hard but so worth it 🙂
I am beaming ear to ear!!!!!!! I have been so THRILLED to get back into the land of dresses! I think, however; that crossing my legs is my all time favorite!! I am so very proud of you.
Aw thanks Autumn…it really is the little things isn’t it!
Five stone down and another size down, here you come! While i seldom wear frocks (or dress up at all), there is something special about being able to put one on, i’m glad you are able to enjoy that again.
It felt very very strange Mimi…I’m not used to having a draught around the knees!!
Hey that’s exciting! You’ll feel great once you try them on in that new size!
I’m hoping so Beth! I can’t wait to get them 🙂
There are so many great parts to this post I don’t know where to start. You are making progress on so many fronts . I am really happy for you!
Congrats on buying new skinner clothes and for losing 3 pounds last week. You aren’t going to be in this new size long before you need a smaller size:)
Your developing your mental toughness too since you are ready to go back to your classes at the god of pains studio. Who would of thought that just a few weeks ago?
You have lost a small child’s weight 70 pounds is a lot! I hope your proud of yourself !
Enjoy your new clothes and keep up the great work!
Thank you Susan! It brought it home to me how heavy that actually is when I tried to lift a 15kg weight at the gym…and Fleury reminded me a few weeks ago that I’d lost the equivalent of two of the big sacks of dog food that I buy, which I can hardly lift!
O joy, o rapture. By the way, this piece is exemplary, love the writing & I love the linen dress! This is real! Brilliant.
Thanks Fleury…me, in a frock, fancy that!
I never commented but I read your blog from the start.
Today I had to comment to congratulate you on your determination. You are doing such a great job mastering all the ups and downs and not giving up. You radiate strength and you help me remotely without knowing it. Thank you.
Ah thank you so much Veronique…it’s lovely to meet you and I’m glad you’re enjoying the blog. I get such a terrific kick from knowing that the things I talk about help you guys even a little bit! I appreciate the encouragement 🙂