When I started writing this, I thought that throwing my thoughts out into the public domain might be an effective way of keeping myself on the straight and narrow as I tried to shift a shedload of weight with yet another diet. I was the wrong side of 300lbs, which is the equivalent of two whole people, and so the thought of reducing by half was more than a bit daunting.
Excess weight has always been a thing, for me. I grew from being a space-hopper shaped baby, to a fat child, to a chubby teenager…a brief period followed where I was almost (but not quite) slim, and I’ve spent the last 25 years playing Yo-Yo back and forth between a size 12 and a size 28. Regularly. Painfully…as I stared down the barrel of being 50 years old, I knew that enough was enough. I felt invisible, and my knees were so OVER lugging all this weight around.
If I was to try and define my blog, I guess you’d call it a collection of personal reflections as I try and unpick the spaghetti inside my head, and stick to a healthy food plan. There’s no diet advice as such, but as I’ve stumbled over light-bulb moments which have helped me, I’ve laid them all out there in the hope that they might help someone else too…there are lots of us all doing the best we can on the road to Skinny Town.
So the first picture was me 7 years ago – I was already on the slippery slope and probably 20lbs over my skinniest weight, and the smiley one was maybe 5 or 6 years ago…I struggle to believe that I felt really fat when both of these were taken. That feels so sad to me, when I’d give my right arm to look that way in the here and now. I’ve gained the equivalent of a whole other person since these were taken so these days I exist in a camera free zone. Anyway, I like to be different and rather than starting with the ‘now’ picture, here’s what I want to look like. Again 🙂
I’d always thought that once I got to Skinny Town I’d do the big reveal on my fat photos…not that there are many. But, since a few people have asked, and now being 80lbs+ down (as at August 2016), this picture of me in the blue daisy top is the photo I refer to on September 6th’s 2015 blog post The Before Photo…I’d already lost 15lbs or so by that point. See how I’m half hiding behind my friend..? It’s bad, but not as bad as it would have been if you’d copped for the lot! And the one of me looking for all the world like I’d swallowed the moon was taken in December 2014.
And this one was taken in April 2016 at the UK Blog Awards, and I was 60+lbs down. 112 lbs to go…
And this was me at around 80lbs down, taken in August 2016…I’ve had a whoopsie since then and gained a bit back but the wheels are back on now thank goodness.